Being

Always staring at that one spot on the wall

where the light shines from the moon through

the window it reminds me that everything has

its own purpose.

Waking up late again. 

Cant hear my alarm in the morning

when thinking too much the night before.

Thinking too much about wishing 

that most times I didn't think at all.

Sensitive to the sound of loud tears.

Aware of touch with good intentions

and pushing away the opposite but

always without delay

regretting ever letting 

them close enough.

Empathizing because your pain is quiet.

Your pain is real.

and I see how it affects your speech

Haven't yet figured out why I let my nervous habits take over

allowing nothing but nothing but nothing but nothing

Still repeated theory

possible to break. 

Over analyzing until the object becomes

unclear or translucent and never tangible.

Disappointment from your own self.

Blind because you are sure it is from everyone around

and the only words you needed to trust.

"It'll all work out."

Fast interruptions when you feel

that tingle just below your cheek bone

and I cant count how many feelings drag behind music.

trying to compose chord progressions that bring those

same feelings all good and bad,

more in between.

Familiar sounds and not knowing the name for certain smells.

Never informed or aware of the names for certain feelings.

Accidents too big to push out of your mind until 

tripping on your own feet forces you to see the illusion. 

Windfalls at random 

sometimes when needed the most.

Words with elegant definitions

You never knew you could fall in love with words

until the day you couldn't think of a word perfect

enough to describe why.

Saying things you don't mean and 

finding yourself always apologizing 

wondering if it is still sincere. 

Discovering what really brought happiness.

So you create time only for passion that just wants

to be practiced so that it can be heard for souls who

found time to listen.

Enormous change.

Sometimes in little amounts

small enough to go unnoticed until informed

buy someone else before you could catch

up to see around the corner.

Falling.

Falling hard that it hurts more

on the inside than out

and loosing sleep figuring 

out how you missed by so far.

Late to the important.

Early for the uncertain, unnecessary.

Mistakes that only create 

understanding and anger 

at the same time but perfect 

is confusing with no meaning

or story to tell.

Trying.

Sometimes giving up.

Extensive hours and burning work.

It all must prove something. 

It all must prove something.

It all must prove something

It all must prove somethin

It all must prove somethi

It all must prove someth

It all must prove somet

It all must prove some

It all must prove som

It all must prove so

It all must prove s

It all must prove 

It all must prov

It all must pro

It all must pr

It all must p

It all must 

It all mus

It all mu

It all m

It all

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