Always staring at that one spot on the wall
where the light shines from the moon through
the window it reminds me that everything has
its own purpose.
Waking up late again.
Cant hear my alarm in the morning
when thinking too much the night before.
Thinking too much about wishing
that most times I didn't think at all.
Sensitive to the sound of loud tears.
Aware of touch with good intentions
and pushing away the opposite but
always without delay
regretting ever letting
them close enough.
Empathizing because your pain is quiet.
Your pain is real.
and I see how it affects your speech
Haven't yet figured out why I let my nervous habits take over
allowing nothing but nothing but nothing but nothing
Still repeated theory
possible to break.
Over analyzing until the object becomes
unclear or translucent and never tangible.
Disappointment from your own self.
Blind because you are sure it is from everyone around
and the only words you needed to trust.
"It'll all work out."
Fast interruptions when you feel
that tingle just below your cheek bone
and I cant count how many feelings drag behind music.
trying to compose chord progressions that bring those
same feelings all good and bad,
more in between.
Familiar sounds and not knowing the name for certain smells.
Never informed or aware of the names for certain feelings.
Accidents too big to push out of your mind until
tripping on your own feet forces you to see the illusion.
Windfalls at random
sometimes when needed the most.
Words with elegant definitions
You never knew you could fall in love with words
until the day you couldn't think of a word perfect
enough to describe why.
Saying things you don't mean and
finding yourself always apologizing
wondering if it is still sincere.
Discovering what really brought happiness.
So you create time only for passion that just wants
to be practiced so that it can be heard for souls who
found time to listen.
Enormous change.
Sometimes in little amounts
small enough to go unnoticed until informed
buy someone else before you could catch
up to see around the corner.
Falling.
Falling hard that it hurts more
on the inside than out
and loosing sleep figuring
out how you missed by so far.
Late to the important.
Early for the uncertain, unnecessary.
Mistakes that only create
understanding and anger
at the same time but perfect
is confusing with no meaning
or story to tell.
Trying.
Sometimes giving up.
Extensive hours and burning work.
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