live poem

pinpoints

10 20
right now i am unsure, i think of the moon + motivation
i am believing
i am careful

1 00
right now i am aching, i want to accomplish
i am hoping
i smile

3 00
right now i am confused, what do i know
i am able
i am cold
i want to give

4 30
right now i am laughing, i laugh with people in pain, they hide it so well
i am fearful
i am living
am i living

5 50
right now i am breathing, i think about sometimes taking it for granted
i am thinking of someone
i am waiting
i want to help

6 00
right now i am seeing, i keep solving math problems, they tell me its good practice
i am aware
i am looking for something
i am tired
i keep looking

7 30
right now i am writing, i feel so happy
i am excited
i can't figure out why
i am grateful

8 00
right now i am picturing, i design the future, i think to remain in the present
i am wishing you well
i am anxious

9 14
right now i am

Short story

Roses. The cemetery was quiet. I wanted you to have them. A pure bouquet. How innocently they tribute each other. I am inspired. Dont hold your words back. I must act on every impression.

They are desirable
You can
You will see

the day of the crash

I want to be tangled in the wreckage. 

Body + bones wrapped throughout branches.

Soul focused on following the ashes. 

I desire for these eyes to accept superior, inferior, everything in between + all beyond the edges endlessly. 

I don't want to just walk past. 

I am not afraid of last. 

The dancing past

I followed your lead. We parade to the very ends of an unfamiliar lake. Surrounded by holy water our words disappear to sink so deeply. Every word rooted under ground holding together a perfect body of water that our own bodies ached to last forever in. Everyone else somnolent. You + I still holding fast, firm grasp. We wrapped ourselves around each others words believing we could occupy the exactness endlessly. I studied your concernment. The silence always comfortable. Your touch shaking with lack of confidence I wished away your worries. Your embrace consoling I confided in every instance. Treading through pitch-dark waters we were drenched in our own fears. Humble reflections of golden stars we stare at our scares to revoke determination. I felt the universe all the way to the core of my bones. Feet first head last + under so fast. I wanted to keep still + become weightless. All eyes anxious. Waiting for you to decide to surface to the top + slowly track back to the edges. Head above water. Goodnight + see you soon. We eliminate tragic goodbyes. We own these subtle memories. Accepting all triggers of present moments that escort you back into these deserted spaces. These seconds dream of surviving. I dream of these seconds. Waking to find my body aching from the dancing past I decide to let them run back.

bring back

two old become one new

and love

champions and fear and love

no and blue and love

right and yes and love

voice and cold and love

distance i know and love

sharp and aware and love

goodnight goodbye and love

Treasures

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8W7aTCwYqM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ge4PE6s1C0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vWYp4zmiV8I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDU5Y4eznWU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ecGp7iOYY2I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9H3BzKhSHgY

Besides the point

 I depended on the wind to take my tired thinking.
I realized my mind never knew of real breathing.